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I'm starting this journal because I'm starting a new chapter in my life. The only way I know how to deal with it is to write it out and maybe if I tell it to the public (whether someone really reads it or not) I may feel like I'm talking to someone who understands rather than just getting responses like, "wow I really wish there was something I could say." The best way to deal with things, for me, is to write... and that's what I intend on doing. I want to write until I understand myself, and how my life got to this point. A year ago to date, I was probably the happiest I've ever been with myself, and with my life.
I never said this "new chapter" was getting a new job, or moving to a new city... the best way I can describe this new chapter is stopping and realizing I've never really took the chance to understand myself. I've used a crutch in dealing with things my whole life, whether it be drugs, alcohol, or a "friend" I've never dealt with anything on my own. Well, that's what I need to do. I need to be OK by myself... I've been avoiding myself for so long that now I've realized I've been avoiding life. And now I'm ready to begin my life... alone... and happy.

We'll see...

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